wanderlust

kristina. twenty-five. sf bay area.
❝ comes and goes like fitz and the dizzyspells. ❞
i'm an amalgamation of bryan fuller characters: the quiet and awkward hobbyist, the cynic who would willingly converse with inanimate objects to seek resolutions, the overly ambitious but ne'er-get-anywhere recluse. at least a toilet seat hasn't fallen on my head. my name is kristina, and i have neon disease.

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The life of a writer is absolute hell. 

Two hours of writing fiction leaves this particular writer absolutely drained. For those two hours he has been miles away, he has been somewhere else, in a different place with totally different people, and the effort of swimming back into normal surroundings is very great. It is almost a shock. The writer walks out of his workroom in a daze. He wants a drink. He needs it. It happens to be a fact that nearly every writer of fiction in the world drinks more whiskey than is good for him. He does it to give himself faith, hope, and courage. A person is a fool to become a writer. His only compensation is absolute freedom. He has no master except his own soul, and that, I am sure, is why he does it.

"I think the hardest thing about writing… is writing."
- nora ephron.

"If you want a happy ending, that depends, of course, on where you stop your story."
- orson welles.

"There’s a book in everyone."
- paperback hero.

"I am a camera with its shutter open, quite passive, recording, not thinking… Some day, all this will have to be developed, carefully printed, fixed."
- goodbye to berlin, christopher isherwood.

"The only thing holding me back from producing, directing and writing, is that I figure I’ll have to get up at 6:00 AM too many days in a row. But if I feel rested, it’s great to carpe the hell out of the diem."
- robert downey, jr.

• Kyle: When's the last time you were a writer?
• Roman: Fuck you, I've written three scripts. I've written… two novels.
• Kyle: Uh, you haven't written two novels.
• Roman: I'm halfway through four novels, so that's… two novels.

"In the deepest hour of the night, confess to yourself that you would die if you were forbidden to write. And look deep into your heart where it spreads its roots, the answer, and ask yourself, ‘must I write?’"
- rainer maria rilke.